A Pandemic Is The Perfect Time For New Beginnings
For years I have always considered myself a writer and yet I write only for myself in a notebook that nobody will ever see. At least while I am still here. I always questioned whether or not I had anything "special" that people would want to read. What could I possibly bring to the table that is different? That hasn't already been done? While I haven't reinvented the wheel, I do have my voice, my experiences and a story; my story. That is unique.
We are in the midst of a global pandemic. The entire world is changing. Shifting. America is leading in the number of confirmed cases of Covid-19. A virus. California, where I live, is under a "Safer at Home" order. All non-essential businesses are closed. The elder population, the immunocompromised and pregnant women are all advised to not leave their homes. I am immunocompromised.
Last year, July 3rd, I was diagnosed with triple negative breast cancer. I underwent 6 rounds of intense chemo over the course of 5 months and in January this year I had a double mastectomy. When America was alerted to the new reality that the virus had in fact made it's way here, everything moved fast. Thankfully my Naturopathic Doctor had advised me to self quarantine before it was announced here in the states. In an instant, life as we knew had shifted. The reality of what my body had been through last year was no longer something I could brush to the side. I had to accept that I am still recovering from chemo and that I in fact had navigated cancer. See, all throughout treatment I never joined cancer groups of any kind. I had met and befriended some women who had navigated cancer before me and they were beyond helpful in so many ways. Though any person that I met that was fearful still or "negative" in any way, I ran from them as fast as I could. I didn't want to be seen as a "cancer patient" nor did I want to identify or behave as one. On March 11th, all the denial or refusal to acknowledge where I had been no longer worked. I had to admit that I was immunocompromised and recovering. This doesn't mean that I see myself as a victim. I certainly am not. I just simply need to be extra cautious right now. Stay home. Make sure my husband is fully disinfected when he comes home, sanitize anything that comes in our home and take care of my mind, body and soul. Staying home has been a huge adjustment for me. I am not one who is comfortable with just being. I have recently learned this. Throughout treatment last year, I was always doing (all of which I will get into in other posts). Now that I am cancer free and ready to move forward, me and the rest of the world are being asked to stay still. Stay home. So, here I am. Learning new things, learning how to be and facing those things that I had every excuse to put off until later. Later is now. What better time to begin that blog, that writing that I have always wanted to do, but was too busy being busy to sit still long enough to write? I'd say a worldwide pandemic is the perfect time to start those things that I have always wanted to try or do.
We are in the midst of a global pandemic. The entire world is changing. Shifting. America is leading in the number of confirmed cases of Covid-19. A virus. California, where I live, is under a "Safer at Home" order. All non-essential businesses are closed. The elder population, the immunocompromised and pregnant women are all advised to not leave their homes. I am immunocompromised.
Last year, July 3rd, I was diagnosed with triple negative breast cancer. I underwent 6 rounds of intense chemo over the course of 5 months and in January this year I had a double mastectomy. When America was alerted to the new reality that the virus had in fact made it's way here, everything moved fast. Thankfully my Naturopathic Doctor had advised me to self quarantine before it was announced here in the states. In an instant, life as we knew had shifted. The reality of what my body had been through last year was no longer something I could brush to the side. I had to accept that I am still recovering from chemo and that I in fact had navigated cancer. See, all throughout treatment I never joined cancer groups of any kind. I had met and befriended some women who had navigated cancer before me and they were beyond helpful in so many ways. Though any person that I met that was fearful still or "negative" in any way, I ran from them as fast as I could. I didn't want to be seen as a "cancer patient" nor did I want to identify or behave as one. On March 11th, all the denial or refusal to acknowledge where I had been no longer worked. I had to admit that I was immunocompromised and recovering. This doesn't mean that I see myself as a victim. I certainly am not. I just simply need to be extra cautious right now. Stay home. Make sure my husband is fully disinfected when he comes home, sanitize anything that comes in our home and take care of my mind, body and soul. Staying home has been a huge adjustment for me. I am not one who is comfortable with just being. I have recently learned this. Throughout treatment last year, I was always doing (all of which I will get into in other posts). Now that I am cancer free and ready to move forward, me and the rest of the world are being asked to stay still. Stay home. So, here I am. Learning new things, learning how to be and facing those things that I had every excuse to put off until later. Later is now. What better time to begin that blog, that writing that I have always wanted to do, but was too busy being busy to sit still long enough to write? I'd say a worldwide pandemic is the perfect time to start those things that I have always wanted to try or do.
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